the last 2 days i have felt pretty sad. i am so sad for the people in haiti. i just don't know how people get through such devastation of their home. they are constantly on my mind, and even though i did make a financial donation, i wish i could do more. but for now, i will continue praying.
last night cody finally made it very clear why is so AGAINST adoption, for now anyway. i never even said i was ready to adopt any time soon, just maybe in the future. he has been telling me since the day i brought it up that he will NOT adopt until we have at least one more of our own. and every time i tried to talk to him about how great the need is for adoption, he just walked away. so i have been doing subtle things to make sure adoption is still "in his face" a little bit. well, last night he made a comment about it's obvious i just don't want to have HIS babies. it broke my heart a little because i never intended on hurting his feelings, and i never would have thought he was feeling that way. my whole reasoning for maybe wanting to adopt was simply because i see how great the need for it is. he saw it as i just didn't want another one of his babies, which makes absolutely no sense to me, but i have to respect his feelings. my family is my first priority, so for now i am tabling the subject of adoption. i am by no means ready to have another baby, but i will not push adoption now for a while either. i am just going to keep praying that God's will be done in this situation, and if that means me having another baby first, then so be it. i am just glad to know now why cody would never talk to me about adoption. i just wish he wouldn't have kept it bottled up so long.
hannah is doing great on her potty training! really, i don't know that we are still even "training"...she is definitely potty trained! she is still wearing diapers at night, but does great at nap time, even at chandra's house. i love that i don't have to buy any more diapers:)
"the love dare" devotional is still going really great, and cody and i have only missed one night since we started it! we are not really talking each night about it, but i can definitely tell we are both trying to use it in our every day lives. i can tell he is trying to cut back on the comments, and it is making me realize i am not always good at putting him ahead of everyone else. i am working on that. it really has been good for me in general as well, though. it is making me have a better attitude towards people i don't necessarily even like, and making me attempt at having a more loving attitiude. i really am liking it!
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