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wow, 2 posts in one day!!

i need to update on china. i still am not 100% sure that adoption is where i am being led, but i feel like i am being pulled more that way. cody still does not want to talk about it, and he still has not read chapter 4 about adoption in fields of the fatherless, which is definitely disappointing. i doubt he even will now since he is so far behind in our bible study. i just keep praying that God will move in his heart, and i do know that he already is...

when all of this came about with china i didn't know where to start and what i am supposed to do. i still don't know what i need to be doing, but i did know that sponsorship was going to be a good place to start. so i approached this with cody. i told him i wanted to sponsor a child from china. he told me not right now. so i dropped it for a few days. when i brought it up again, i told him that is what he could do for me for christmas-let me sponsor a child from china. he said that didn't sound like a good gift, but if i would just wait for his second crew to get up and running at work that i could do it just because. well, that was frustrating because so much has gone wrong with getting this second crew going that i just don't know if it's going to happen at all. so i started researching anyway just so i would be ready when he gave me the "ok". i came across show hope, and then maria's big house of hope. i knew immediately that was where i was supposed to give my money. they do sponsorships that go towards procedures for special needs orphans to make them more easily "adoptable". i am very drawn to the special needs children, so this was a no-brainer for me.

so, once again, i approached it with cody. i have been praying that somehow God will just move in his heart, even if it's just enough to get a seed planted. well, it must have worked because when i told cody i had found where i wanted my sponsorship to go when he finally "let" me, he told me to just go ahead and do it!! i couldn't believe it, but i definitely jumped on the chance!

now there is just one problem...show hope posts about all the precious babies that need homes! there is one little girl named june, and if i were in a place to adopt right this second, i would go get her! but i guess i shouldn't press my luck with cody. i know he will get to this place eventually, but it needs to be on God's time, and without my pushing!

cody is trying so desperately to get this land that he wants and maybe once that happens he will realize that the house we are going to build is more than big enough for an adopted child and another biological one eventually if that is what he wants.

just praying for God to move...