"Don't fear moving slowly forward...fear standing still."

This quote really hit me today. It is actually the quote of the day from the running website I have been using, but it is so fitting in so many areas of my life right now. i feel like i am just stuck trying to figure out what i am supposed to be doing, but i don't want to just "stand still". i have a very dear friend that is helping me to come out of this rut. i don't even know if she understands she is helping me by praying for me and just listening, but i don't know what i would do without her right now. i can already feel myself slowly coming out of my hole, even though i have no idea where i am headed yet.

running is helping also. as much as i really thought i hated to run, i am finding myself enjoying it. even when i don't have the want to go, once i do get started, i am so glad i did. and it makes me feel so good the rest of the day. it really has become a great stress reliever for me, and it sure doesn't hurt that i am losing weight on top of it all!

hannah is making me crazy these days. she and i just go round and round lately, and i am so tired of being frustrated with her. i need patience...i know she's only 22 months old, but she is the most strong-willed person i have ever known!! i just adore her and she makes my heart happy, but man, the stubbornness could go away and i would not miss it one bit!!

we had our second bible study last night, and i really think i am going to enjoy it. the other couples are great, and once we really get into the book, i think that will be great also. i am just praying God will move in my heart. lately i have no passion for anything, but i want that to change. the only bad thing is that cody and i always feel like we have to rush home to let my mom go home. we are the only ones with a child, and so no one else has to get home to the "babysitter"!!